Enough is enough is a FUCKING nough! You can thank G effin W for 34 dead children in Iraq amoung countless other crimes against humanity. The staggering lines of destruction, murder, and hate is being encouraged by the man YOU put into office. VOTE KERRY/EDWARDS. My prayers and heart go out to the families that have been stricken with grief and terror. Do the math. 200 billion divided by 281,421,906 americans = $710.68 Thats more than my tax break check was for. It makes each dead american GI worth a whole $.71. Dead Iraqi's only 1.4 cents. Life's cheap when it isn't your own.
Thursday, September 30
Wednesday, September 29
Fallen
Autumn is my all time favorite season. Warm Spiced Chi Lattes and Portishead add to aesthetics of it all. I have a craving for the scent of patchouli too...
from the pages of moby's journal
Dear Friends,
Enough of the handwringing! Enough of the doomsaying! Do I have to come there and personally calm you down? Stop with all the defeatism, OK? Bush IS a goner -- IF we all just quit our whining and bellyaching and stop shaking like a bunch of nervous ninnies. Geez, this is embarrassing! The Republicans are laughing at us. Do you ever see them cry, "Oh, it's all over! We are finished! Bush can't win! Waaaaaa!"
Hell no. It's never over for them until the last ballot is shredded. They are never finished -- they just keeping moving forward like sharks that never sleep, always pushing, pulling, kicking, blocking, lying.
They are relentless and that is why we secretly admire them -- they just simply never, ever give up. Only 30% of the country calls itself "Republican," yet the Republicans own it all -- the White House, both houses of Congress, the Supreme Court and the majority of the governorships. How do you think they've been able to pull that off considering they are a minority? It's because they eat you and me and every other liberal for breakfast and then spend the rest of the day wreaking havoc on the planet.
Look at us -- what a bunch of crybabies. Bush gets a bounce after his convention and you would have thought the Germans had run through Poland again. The Bushies are coming, the Bushies are coming! Yes, they caught Kerry asleep on the Swift Boat thing. Yes, they found the frequency in Dan Rather and ran with it. Suddenly it's like, "THE END IS NEAR! THE SKY IS FALLING!"
No, it is not. If I hear one more person tell me how lousy a candidate Kerry is and how he can't win... Dammit, of COURSE he's a lousy candidate -- he's a Democrat, for heavens sake! That party is so pathetic, they even lose the elections they win! What were you expecting, Bruce Springsteen heading up the ticket? Bruce would make a helluva president, but guys like him don't run -- and neither do you or I. People like Kerry run.
Yes, OF COURSE any of us would have run a better, smarter, kick-ass campaign. Of course we would have smacked each and every one of those phony swifty boaty bastards down. But WE are not running for president -- Kerry is. So quit complaining and work with what we have. Oprah just gave 300 women a... Pontiac! Did you see any of them frowning and moaning and screaming, "Oh God, NOT a friggin' Pontiac!" Of course not, they were happy. The Pontiacs all had four wheels, an engine and a gas pedal. You want more than that, well, I can't help you. I had a Pontiac once and it lasted a good year. And it was a VERY good year.
My friends, it is time for a reality check.
1. The polls are wrong. They are all over the map like diarrhea. On Friday, one poll had Bush 13 points ahead -- and another poll had them both tied. There are three reasons why the polls are b.s.: One, they are polling "likely voters." "Likely" means those who have consistently voted in the past few elections. So that cuts out young people who are voting for the first time and a ton of non-voters who are definitely going to vote in THIS election. Second, they are not polling people who use their cell phone as their primary phone. Again, that means they are not talking to young people. Finally, most of the polls are weighted with too many Republicans, as pollster John Zogby revealed last week. You are being snookered if you believe any of these polls.
2. Kerry has brought in the Clinton A-team. Instead of shunning Clinton (as Gore did), Kerry has decided to not make that mistake.
3. Traveling around the country, as I've been doing, I gotta tell ya, there is a hell of a lot of unrest out there. Much of it is not being captured by the mainstream press. But it is simmering and it is real. Do not let those well-produced Bush rallies of angry white people scare you. Turn off the TV! (Except Jon Stewart and Bill Moyers -- everything else is just a sugar-coated lie).
4. Conventional wisdom says if the election is decided on "9/11" (the fear of terrorism), Bush wins. But if it is decided on the job we are doing in Iraq, then Bush loses. And folks, that "job," you might have noticed, has descended into the third level of a hell we used to call Vietnam. There is no way out. It is a full blown mess of a quagmire and the body bags will sadly only mount higher. Regardless of what Kerry meant by his original war vote, he ain't the one who sent those kids to their deaths -- and Mr. and Mrs. Middle America knows it. Had Bush bothered to show up when he was in the "service" he might have somewhat of a clue as to how to recognize an immoral war that cannot be "won." All he has delivered to Iraq was that plasticized turkey last Thanksgiving. It is this failure of monumental proportions that is going to cook his goose come this November.
So, do not despair. All is not over. Far from it. The Bush people need you to believe that it is over. They need you to slump back into your easy chair and feel that sick pain in your gut as you contemplate another four years of George W. Bush. They need you to wish we had a candidate who didn't windsurf and who was just as smart as we were when WE knew Bush was lying about WMD and Saddam planning 9/11. It's like Karl Rove is hypnotizing you -- "Kerry voted for the war...Kerry voted for the war...Kerrrrrryyy vooootted fooooor theeee warrrrrrrrrr..."
Yes...Yes...Yesssss....He did! HE DID! No sense in fighting now...what I need is sleep...sleeep...sleeeeeeppppp...
WAKE UP! The majority are with us! More than half of all Americans are pro-choice, want stronger environmental laws, are appalled that assault weapons are back on the street -- and 54% now believe the war is wrong. YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE TO CONVINCE THEM OF ANY OF THIS -- YOU JUST HAVE TO GIVE THEM A RAY OF HOPE AND A RIDE TO THE POLLS. CAN YOU DO THAT? WILL YOU DO THAT?
Just for me, please? Buck up. The country is almost back in our hands. Not another negative word until Nov. 3rd! Then you can bitch all you want about how you wish Kerry was still that long-haired kid who once had the courage to stand up for something. Personally, I think that kid is still inside him. Instead of the wailing and gnashing of your teeth, why not hold out a hand to him and help the inner soldier/protester come out and defeat the forces of evil we now so desperately face. Do we have any other choice?
Yours, Michael Moore
Enough of the handwringing! Enough of the doomsaying! Do I have to come there and personally calm you down? Stop with all the defeatism, OK? Bush IS a goner -- IF we all just quit our whining and bellyaching and stop shaking like a bunch of nervous ninnies. Geez, this is embarrassing! The Republicans are laughing at us. Do you ever see them cry, "Oh, it's all over! We are finished! Bush can't win! Waaaaaa!"
Hell no. It's never over for them until the last ballot is shredded. They are never finished -- they just keeping moving forward like sharks that never sleep, always pushing, pulling, kicking, blocking, lying.
They are relentless and that is why we secretly admire them -- they just simply never, ever give up. Only 30% of the country calls itself "Republican," yet the Republicans own it all -- the White House, both houses of Congress, the Supreme Court and the majority of the governorships. How do you think they've been able to pull that off considering they are a minority? It's because they eat you and me and every other liberal for breakfast and then spend the rest of the day wreaking havoc on the planet.
Look at us -- what a bunch of crybabies. Bush gets a bounce after his convention and you would have thought the Germans had run through Poland again. The Bushies are coming, the Bushies are coming! Yes, they caught Kerry asleep on the Swift Boat thing. Yes, they found the frequency in Dan Rather and ran with it. Suddenly it's like, "THE END IS NEAR! THE SKY IS FALLING!"
No, it is not. If I hear one more person tell me how lousy a candidate Kerry is and how he can't win... Dammit, of COURSE he's a lousy candidate -- he's a Democrat, for heavens sake! That party is so pathetic, they even lose the elections they win! What were you expecting, Bruce Springsteen heading up the ticket? Bruce would make a helluva president, but guys like him don't run -- and neither do you or I. People like Kerry run.
Yes, OF COURSE any of us would have run a better, smarter, kick-ass campaign. Of course we would have smacked each and every one of those phony swifty boaty bastards down. But WE are not running for president -- Kerry is. So quit complaining and work with what we have. Oprah just gave 300 women a... Pontiac! Did you see any of them frowning and moaning and screaming, "Oh God, NOT a friggin' Pontiac!" Of course not, they were happy. The Pontiacs all had four wheels, an engine and a gas pedal. You want more than that, well, I can't help you. I had a Pontiac once and it lasted a good year. And it was a VERY good year.
My friends, it is time for a reality check.
1. The polls are wrong. They are all over the map like diarrhea. On Friday, one poll had Bush 13 points ahead -- and another poll had them both tied. There are three reasons why the polls are b.s.: One, they are polling "likely voters." "Likely" means those who have consistently voted in the past few elections. So that cuts out young people who are voting for the first time and a ton of non-voters who are definitely going to vote in THIS election. Second, they are not polling people who use their cell phone as their primary phone. Again, that means they are not talking to young people. Finally, most of the polls are weighted with too many Republicans, as pollster John Zogby revealed last week. You are being snookered if you believe any of these polls.
2. Kerry has brought in the Clinton A-team. Instead of shunning Clinton (as Gore did), Kerry has decided to not make that mistake.
3. Traveling around the country, as I've been doing, I gotta tell ya, there is a hell of a lot of unrest out there. Much of it is not being captured by the mainstream press. But it is simmering and it is real. Do not let those well-produced Bush rallies of angry white people scare you. Turn off the TV! (Except Jon Stewart and Bill Moyers -- everything else is just a sugar-coated lie).
4. Conventional wisdom says if the election is decided on "9/11" (the fear of terrorism), Bush wins. But if it is decided on the job we are doing in Iraq, then Bush loses. And folks, that "job," you might have noticed, has descended into the third level of a hell we used to call Vietnam. There is no way out. It is a full blown mess of a quagmire and the body bags will sadly only mount higher. Regardless of what Kerry meant by his original war vote, he ain't the one who sent those kids to their deaths -- and Mr. and Mrs. Middle America knows it. Had Bush bothered to show up when he was in the "service" he might have somewhat of a clue as to how to recognize an immoral war that cannot be "won." All he has delivered to Iraq was that plasticized turkey last Thanksgiving. It is this failure of monumental proportions that is going to cook his goose come this November.
So, do not despair. All is not over. Far from it. The Bush people need you to believe that it is over. They need you to slump back into your easy chair and feel that sick pain in your gut as you contemplate another four years of George W. Bush. They need you to wish we had a candidate who didn't windsurf and who was just as smart as we were when WE knew Bush was lying about WMD and Saddam planning 9/11. It's like Karl Rove is hypnotizing you -- "Kerry voted for the war...Kerry voted for the war...Kerrrrrryyy vooootted fooooor theeee warrrrrrrrrr..."
Yes...Yes...Yesssss....He did! HE DID! No sense in fighting now...what I need is sleep...sleeep...sleeeeeeppppp...
WAKE UP! The majority are with us! More than half of all Americans are pro-choice, want stronger environmental laws, are appalled that assault weapons are back on the street -- and 54% now believe the war is wrong. YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE TO CONVINCE THEM OF ANY OF THIS -- YOU JUST HAVE TO GIVE THEM A RAY OF HOPE AND A RIDE TO THE POLLS. CAN YOU DO THAT? WILL YOU DO THAT?
Just for me, please? Buck up. The country is almost back in our hands. Not another negative word until Nov. 3rd! Then you can bitch all you want about how you wish Kerry was still that long-haired kid who once had the courage to stand up for something. Personally, I think that kid is still inside him. Instead of the wailing and gnashing of your teeth, why not hold out a hand to him and help the inner soldier/protester come out and defeat the forces of evil we now so desperately face. Do we have any other choice?
Yours, Michael Moore
Sunday, September 26
go here
Since I am obsessed with my memory of High School - this link should be no surprise. Classmates. I am sure you have seen the ad for it, but go in and check it out put your name up and the year you graduated - etc.
to give
I love to “give” people music. I love to envision others receiving the gifts of song. The enthralling euphoria of soul shattering goodness. You know I like you a lot when I recommend a list of songs for you. Of course, I would probably offer anyone a list of music. I view music as a masterpiece that has the ability to change your life even if it is only for the duration of the song. It’s the same when you have seen a great movie and you rent it again because you are with your friend who hasn’t seen it and you just want to share the goodness of that movie. SO you sacrifice watching a new movie, because your soul desire it to let your friend have the chance to get the same affect you did.
Friday, September 24
For Medicinal Use only
blame is an easy thing to place when you are hurt. When your heart is cut out and dripping on your tennis shoes while you can only stare at it and bleed and when your soul has shuddered with the magnitude of uncertainty. Yes, here it is, my friend Blame. I am hurt to the very core of what I have come to accept as my own self. It is a selfish hurt, one that does not know it’s own purpose but, manages always to thrive and instill it’s own experience in me. I know this, but I refuse to change this perennial absurdity. Don’t ask why…It will just piss me off. Why get mad, you ask? Well because I Don’t know and the emotion and feeling of Not Knowing is one that has been known to terrify me to the point of paralysis. To Be Contiued with next months issue of : Here is my life in Jar.
do you still speak for the trees?
Tommy is that you going back and reading my entire site from the campus computers (on a Macintosh - {in a math building?}) today (well now it was technically yesterday.)? I bet it is...why are you so interested Mr. Graham ? hmmmm?
Thursday, September 23
dirty laundry and Trash
Beheadings, Car bombs, Floods, Hurricanes, North Korea testing a nuclear weapons but denying it….wonderful news headlines lately. Oh I just found this: N. Korea May Be Preparing Missile Launch – who is the bright one that discovered this? Aren't these headlines a little LATE!? This world is drifting farther from Ascension every day. Goodbye - I am going back to bed to dwell and sulk (Ok, so I am not going back to bed, but I would like to…)
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I found a far better web page tracker. This one is invisible to you and tells me everything about each and every one of you. What city you are in, IP address, how long you looked at the site, which links you clicked on, etc. Fantastic little tool.
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new woman blog found: http://www.smartandsassy.net/
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I found a far better web page tracker. This one is invisible to you and tells me everything about each and every one of you. What city you are in, IP address, how long you looked at the site, which links you clicked on, etc. Fantastic little tool.
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new woman blog found: http://www.smartandsassy.net/
Wednesday, September 22
lore
You are the Moon card. Entering the Moon we enter
the intuitive and psychic realms. This is the
stuff dreams are made on. And like dreams the
imagery we find here may inspire us or torment
us. Understanding the moon requires looking
within. Our own bodily rhythms are echoed in
this luminary that circles the earth every
month and reflects the sun in its progress.
Listening to those rhythms may produce visions
and lead you towards insight. The Moon is a
force that has legends attached to it. It
carries with it both romance and insanity.
Moonlight reveals itself as an illusion and it
is only those willing to work with the force of
dreams that are able to withstand this
reflective light. Image from: Stevee Postman.
http://www.stevee.com/
Which Tarot Card Are You?
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I love tarot card art, it is always fantastic. There are so many different types of cards out there. They are fun.
Friday, September 17
reflection
I can’t afford to eat out for breakfast, but I did it anyway this morning. I have a job interview and after all I need a healthy start to my day (right?). Over a meat lovers omelet with two greasy slices of American cheese I started to think about Shane, my first love. My thoughts were not so isolated to just include the enigmatic love interest but also Doug and Nick – The Jones brothers who were equally (if not more) intriguing to me. The talent show that we all did in high school had now become my morning fixation. Our piece for the show was creative and fucking fantastic, if I do say so myself. I have it on tape somewhere; I think my grandma actually has the copy of it. She liked Nick’s performance the best, as did my uncle. It would be ideal if Shane, Doug, Nick, and I could all sit down and watch the tape together I think it would bring back feelings of that wondrous high school euphoria and maybe we could all get drunk and stoned and it would be like old times – of course Nick would never smoke….he has always been adamant that he is eccentric enough and he does not need any sort of drug to induce further feelings of insanity.
Looking back on it now, I was quite the little gothic harlot in high school. I had this vulnerable yet I will “cut your throat” attitude. My hair was long and dyed black or burgundy most of the time; my eyes were always painted with black eyeliner and shadow – to match my black wardrobe, of course. I was very sensual and erotic and I didn’t even really know it. I loved to hate being me and I loved the attention that I could get from the boys. I spent most of my time in the art room and during lunch I would sneak into the auditorium and stand in the middle of the stage, imagining someday I would be famous. Famous for anything really, I didn’t care, the idea of just having fame inspired me. On occasion, when I felt brave, I would sing in that empty auditorium. My own voice would give me chills….the acoustics in an empty room like that is very astounding! I wonder if anyone ever heard me?
It is tragic how I had more sense of self then than I do now. Then I was just conforming with all the other nonconformists and wishing for anarchy or in the least reject any kind of police state mentality and flip off any sort of authoritative figure that crossed my path.
I know I dwell on high school too much, I miss it too much. I have never really adjusted to life outside of it. I ruled my destiny in high school, I was very much desired, and thought to be such a mystery and I loved it. Now, where do I stand amongst my peers? I fear that I am not standing at all, but slouching in the corner way in the back - my voice lost in the idle commotion. I have lost my edge.
Looking back on it now, I was quite the little gothic harlot in high school. I had this vulnerable yet I will “cut your throat” attitude. My hair was long and dyed black or burgundy most of the time; my eyes were always painted with black eyeliner and shadow – to match my black wardrobe, of course. I was very sensual and erotic and I didn’t even really know it. I loved to hate being me and I loved the attention that I could get from the boys. I spent most of my time in the art room and during lunch I would sneak into the auditorium and stand in the middle of the stage, imagining someday I would be famous. Famous for anything really, I didn’t care, the idea of just having fame inspired me. On occasion, when I felt brave, I would sing in that empty auditorium. My own voice would give me chills….the acoustics in an empty room like that is very astounding! I wonder if anyone ever heard me?
It is tragic how I had more sense of self then than I do now. Then I was just conforming with all the other nonconformists and wishing for anarchy or in the least reject any kind of police state mentality and flip off any sort of authoritative figure that crossed my path.
I know I dwell on high school too much, I miss it too much. I have never really adjusted to life outside of it. I ruled my destiny in high school, I was very much desired, and thought to be such a mystery and I loved it. Now, where do I stand amongst my peers? I fear that I am not standing at all, but slouching in the corner way in the back - my voice lost in the idle commotion. I have lost my edge.
Thursday, September 16
blocked
not being able to feel inspired and be creative makes me angry and restless. I am being stifled by something and I can't figure out what it is. I am on hiatus until further notice.
Monday, September 13
happy day
1. my dad told me he loved me this morning *gasp*
2. LNH called, I have a job interview there on Friday at 2:30! (wish me luck)
3. Robert is sending me a present and called to tell me this day was going to be a good one
4. Tristen and I played outside already this morning
5. Mr. Malone still needs a roomate and welcomes T and I to move in with him!!
6. I am sure there are many more reasons that today is wonderful...but I need to go make some phone calls :)
Love and Light
2. LNH called, I have a job interview there on Friday at 2:30! (wish me luck)
3. Robert is sending me a present and called to tell me this day was going to be a good one
4. Tristen and I played outside already this morning
5. Mr. Malone still needs a roomate and welcomes T and I to move in with him!!
6. I am sure there are many more reasons that today is wonderful...but I need to go make some phone calls :)
Love and Light
Saturday, September 11
in her mind
Random musing from my journal: (I have nothing better to post)
Leagues filled with an unexpected and unsurpassed glory
Deafening to those hostile hearts and gray souls
Behind them all is an inevitable question of validity…
Twisted until straight
placid – deep this silence grew
begin with nothing end with nothing right?
Scratch to the inner soul
dig into flesh and bone
until it fills beneath your finger nails
pain will seem small compared to the brilliance
that will be found
Leagues filled with an unexpected and unsurpassed glory
Deafening to those hostile hearts and gray souls
Behind them all is an inevitable question of validity…
Twisted until straight
placid – deep this silence grew
begin with nothing end with nothing right?
Scratch to the inner soul
dig into flesh and bone
until it fills beneath your finger nails
pain will seem small compared to the brilliance
that will be found
Wednesday, September 8
Monday, September 6
Hippy Shit and other things
I sent Army boy a very hateful email. I wish I hadn't of sent it. Even though I meant alot of what I did say, I still shouldn't have perpetuated negative energy. Anyway, It still felt good to get all that hatefulness out, I was crying when I wrote it and today *ta da* total peace with the situation. I am just bad when it comes to him - I can't help it!
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www.futureforst.com. Tommy sent me the link, how odd.
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Cleansing, Centering, and Grounding. This is my new mediation ritual before bed and when I wake up. I still haven't been exact on doing it every morning. I am what you would call an anti-morning person. Ok, so I haven't mediated any morning...I am going to try though. The evening meditaiton is going well. The day seems brighter and happier. *gasp* I know, I am happy today. This is a good sign. Hello my abused Chakra's wake up, its time to open!
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Special Note:
Tyler, I know you are going to be in WI soon. I can't afford to come and see you, but you have an open invitation to visit T and I if you so desire. Come on, It is only a five and half hour drive. Indiana is calling you! (For those of you who do not know Tyler, Tyler has been a fellow blogger friend for quite some time . Yes, big fan of Tyler and all his Tylerdom (I posted this instead of sending you an email with hopes of mass peer pressure.)
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www.futureforst.com. Tommy sent me the link, how odd.
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Cleansing, Centering, and Grounding. This is my new mediation ritual before bed and when I wake up. I still haven't been exact on doing it every morning. I am what you would call an anti-morning person. Ok, so I haven't mediated any morning...I am going to try though. The evening meditaiton is going well. The day seems brighter and happier. *gasp* I know, I am happy today. This is a good sign. Hello my abused Chakra's wake up, its time to open!
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Special Note:
Tyler, I know you are going to be in WI soon. I can't afford to come and see you, but you have an open invitation to visit T and I if you so desire. Come on, It is only a five and half hour drive. Indiana is calling you! (For those of you who do not know Tyler, Tyler has been a fellow blogger friend for quite some time . Yes, big fan of Tyler and all his Tylerdom (I posted this instead of sending you an email with hopes of mass peer pressure.)
Sunday, September 5
Dear God,
I need strength and guidance to overcome fear and vanity. Please see what you can do. I promise I will meet you half way.
Love,
The lilac thief
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Now maybe, I didn't mean to treat you bad but I did it anyway. And maybe some would say your life was sad, but you lived it anway -But you left us far behind. I live with what I know now.
Love,
The lilac thief
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Now maybe, I didn't mean to treat you bad but I did it anyway. And maybe some would say your life was sad, but you lived it anway -But you left us far behind. I live with what I know now.