Reminder

(part of Reason and Passion)

"Among the hills, when you sit in the cool shade of the white poplars, sharing the peace and serenity of distant fields and meadows - then let your heart say in silence, 'God rests in reason.'

And when the storm comes, and the mighty wind shakes the forest, and thunder and lightning proclaim the majesty of the sky, - then let your heart say in awe, 'God moves in passion.'

And since you are a breath In God's sphere, and a leaf in God's forest, you too should rest in reason and move in passion. "


Kahlil Gibran

far out

Went out (finally) this weekend. I left my house. I think I was starting to show signs of agoraphobia. Met up, hung out, and hooked up with some new people (same kind of atmosphere).

* There are three things you should always try and consider before you speak. 1. is it the truth? 2. is it necessary to say? 3. will it make the person that you are speaking to feel good? If you have 2 of the 3 then chances are you should probably speak.
* People still talk about Steal This Book and the Celestine Prophecy. I love little yuppy hippies.
* 3 am talks of politics are fun because chances are your friends are all tree hugging leftists and everyone wants to save the damn world!
* Talks of politics period is a sure fire way to construct emotional barriers. People tend to get uncomfortable (unless they are in agreement with you or have the compassion to appreciate your views)
* I made a promise to myself that I would not have sex with someone that I was not in a serious relationship with. I kept that promise. (It was an incredibly difficult task but I knew I would have a hard time about it so not shaving my legs helped out considerably)
* Bacardi lemon and sprite tastes like candy and I still love long island ice tea (if the bartender makes them right, if the thing tastes kerosene then YES, it was made wrong.)
* Same people were getting together today to watch Fahrenheit 9/11. It is safe to assume herbs will be used, tears may be shed, these people will vote for Kerry, and 2-5 hour discussion about movie will follow if they do not get too fired up and run out on campus to start picketing.
* My love for long auburn dreadlocks was rekindled I didn’t go to sleep until 9 am this (yesterday)morning. I am such a trooper.

we've got a war to fight

How can it feel this wrong?

Didn't sleep until the annoying rays of sunshine came filtering in through my dingy bedroom windows this morning. I hate Insomnia nights.

hurry up and wait

Sometimes I feel as if I am my own anti censorship commercial. I can just envision the duck tape over my lips while someone starts to sew my mouth shut more with a needle and thread. I see this and I don’t know what to do about it. What is it that I would like to scream ? I don’t know because I have yet to have courage to scream it - or at least that how this moment feels. If I did find the courage somewhere under the blankets of fear, What then would I scream? Is this more a problem of not having the courage to let my voice be heard or because I don’t have anything to say?

piss off (please)

I have had to use the toaster to light my cigarettes for the last two days and my hair is still short (from a disasterous haircut).

I am in a bit of a bitch mood too so I will spare you my rant (this time).