a.muse.me

- I have a new (3 weeks new) kitten. His name is Angelo and he is a ninja.
- writing about cats make me think of people who are allergic to them
- one single hair in one single spot on my left arm grows much longer than the rest. I just pulled it out (again)
- the only two video games I could play religiously would be Mortal Combat (for playstation 1) and Gauntlet (for super Nintendo)
- video games make me vomit * sometimes
- I predicted the end of The Village * I love that I am so smart
- my two best (guy) friends play a lot of video games * I am tempted to hide the controls in the cabinet with all the cleaning supplies. *gasp*
- Spending time said best guy friends help me stay ALIVE
- I am trying to wean myself off of anti-depressants (for the 3rd time)
- I hope the notion that your body can heal itself with the aid of holistic medicine is true. It seems very logical to me.
- save the world

still here

Your nurturing instinct is strong today, Dear Cancer...

So many times reflection over takes your memories with searing pain and aching regret. Too many times reflection is merely a way of self torture for us all. I stopped that today. I reflected and had no feelings of regret and a smile with the remembrance of true pain. I now know that we need those experiences that will bring you to the brink of hell’s wrath then only to rip you quickly back to the peace and radiance of heaven. My love for all is so overpowering that it makes me almost weak with strength and truth. You have to know the desire to want to die before you can face the brilliant truth of wanting to LIVE. The desire and instinct to live for your true being and not for someone else, money, religion, your parents, etc. I sound like a cliché Zen book, I know. But honestly, those things are so cliché because they are so HONEST and TRUE. It becomes cliché when people loose their respect for the truth and deny it time and time again. This vicious cycle is in existence because it has a purpose. I respect it as much as I respect the breath of wind through a willow tree, my house plants that are constantly struggling for life, my son’s ability to love with honesty and innocence, my crappy job that drives me crazy, and any other little thing in my life and outside of it. I wish I could put this message into tiny colored bottles and send them to every gas station, store, pantry, post office, etc. If I could bottle the message I would. If I could give it to you all I would. All I can do is love unconditionally (and yes there is such a thing) every day until the day that my purpose is served and balance is restored.

Sage

"There is no meaning to it all except a shadow in the eye at the intersection of morality. "


(credit goes to Nick Bantock again)

Subject to interpretation

"Perhaps one of her greatest values lies in her faithfulness. As she had previously been true to her first lover, she vows to remain forever constant and faithful to Dmitri when she finally realizes her love for him. Furthermore, she accepts her involvement with the murder and willingly seeks to share the guilt with Dmitri. All these factors help redeem her in spite of her capricious past."