chilled

(currently listening: Evanescense - Going Under)



“You look like an angel today.”

An angel that will rip your throat out…
A combination soul of dark and light
He will witness her life
Acknowledgement is given
and she became silent
briefly…
“I need to take these white robes off and change into some jeans.”

Finding center

Currently listening: Blind Melon - Soul One

Today's Horoscope

Just as you think you have stabilized your vacillating emotions, you may find that there is a strong force coming in to stir things up again, dear Cancer. Look at these curve balls as all part of the fun and adventure. There is a calming peacefulness to your nature that should be exalted and praised. If people don't recognize this tremendous quality within you, don't take this as a signal that you need to change and become someone else.

Hmmm explains something unexpected. I love it when those things are accurate. It is nice to see your day in words - written by someone else.

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A telemarketer called today. She wasn't selling anything, just wanted to ask me questions. I answered. I talked to her for 20 minutes. It was a political survey. I enjoyed telling them that I thought Indiana (and the nation) should balance their budget and increase spending for education and Medicaid by increasing "sin" taxes a whole bunch. She wanted to know if I thought Indiana was in better standings or not than with the last govenor. I said,"The governor really doesn't have a whole lot to do with it, it is the damn president that screwed us". She laughed and said " Well that answers my next question on rating President Bush."

Anyway,It was a nice change from high interest credit card sales...

recent past

I seem to be swimming in this nostalgic wave of thought and emotion lately. Flashes of meaningful bits of my past. The remembrance of a certain scent or touch – among other things…


2. Learned that T had flushed his two new (very well and alive) pet fish down the toilet – along with a page from a coloring book (?)
3. Played soccer with Tristen’s oversized bouncy ball with Ron while rocking to Damien Marley.(and loved it?!)
4. bought a new stained glass butterfly wind chime (I heart wind chimes and butterflies)
5. Noticed the lotus leaf petal in the third eye charka symbol
6. Bought two new books: Be Here Now and The Four Agreements - both recommendations.
7. Went to the park with T and Ron – fed ducks, illegally parked, and ate lunch at Arnie’s
8. put on comfy clothes when we were home from town (comfy skirt and light t-shirt)
9. Remembered the bliss of being at peace in one of those (brief) life changing moments (that you forget about in a few days)

untouched

(currently listening: Vast - V.A.S.T.)

Is it all for nothing – Is this really what you wanted?
these wandering stars
Won’t anyone see them?
Trouble at first light.

She sings under her breath
All ways a beautiful song
A song that lulls the willow
and carries the sent of serenity
A beautiful and tragic hope
That none will hear


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floating fish

My little household was upset today with the death of Water, my son’s beta fish. (He named it himself) I made the mistake of flushing the fish, damnit, I should have put him in a box so we could bury it. Oops. It was just instinctual to flush the thing. T comes up to me crying, “I want my Water fish!” Needless to say we will be stopping off at Wal-Mart today to get Water fish #2. My boy is having a bad day, his fish died and he has to go to the doctor. :(
We need our McTherapy. (Nick, you should really copyright that coined term) Yes, that will put a smile on his face.