charisma: forerunner of respect.
AOL has an article on global warming. In light of the movie, “ The Day after Tomorrow”. Hello, global warming has been an issue for YEARS. Why does it take so much for our attention to flock to important issues? Why can’t one just be interested without all the propaganda? Why do we suck so much?
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The downside of going to church is the fact that I have this propensity to sit and have a conversation with the minister instead of just listening. He talks…I think…I want to carry on with this discussion but no, he has to be the only one talking. I had a burning question for him but no, it would have been taboo for me to stop the sermon and ask my little question. Perhaps, I can persuade the church to have open discussions….of course that would require people to actually listen.
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Did you know that Andy Kaufman isn’t dead? Hmmmph. Nice one Andy, Did you bring Elvis back too? I have never seen the movie Man on the Moon. I may rent it sometime soon. I heard you are a nut.
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The intensity of this basement moment. Cleansing fury to wash down the gutter, with the rain.
Sunday, May 30
Saturday, May 29
hello My name is TFUB.
Crappy is a perfect adjective for my day (last 3 days in all its pathetic reality). Roller coaster of depression and emotion, I slept for 7 hours today, only to have intense nightmares that forced me to wake up in a disoriented cloud.
I keep falling into the comforting roll of being destructive. This isn’t a surprise for me. I have habitual phases of mental instability. This is one of those brilliant times.
If anyone has a car they would like to give me, feel free. Mine decided to die yesterday.
If you are reading this, you must come and visit me. I am being smothered by this small ignorant little town. I have no car to leave. Upon your arrival you must either bring 1.chocolate 2.alcohol 3. a happy movie 4. Any kind of present.
Salvia is not a good idea for me right now. Oops.
Crappy is a perfect adjective for my day (last 3 days in all its pathetic reality). Roller coaster of depression and emotion, I slept for 7 hours today, only to have intense nightmares that forced me to wake up in a disoriented cloud.
I keep falling into the comforting roll of being destructive. This isn’t a surprise for me. I have habitual phases of mental instability. This is one of those brilliant times.
If anyone has a car they would like to give me, feel free. Mine decided to die yesterday.
If you are reading this, you must come and visit me. I am being smothered by this small ignorant little town. I have no car to leave. Upon your arrival you must either bring 1.chocolate 2.alcohol 3. a happy movie 4. Any kind of present.
Salvia is not a good idea for me right now. Oops.
Friday, May 28
Hiv Positive want to fuck? Version 2
(a brief apology)
Over a year ago, I made a loud intrusive post about a video that I happened to see at a party on campus. I ran in to the maker of said video last night and I confronted him about it. (Yes I know, its a little late for confrontations here, Shush) He calmly and openly told me information that I did not know, information that made more sense. Even though I still think the video was wrong, But, it is his freedom of speech and is his right to voice whatever emotion screams inside of him. The woman in the video knew everything she needed to know to protect herself. (I have been told that by a number of different sources) The airing of this video did not carry the exact message that I assumed. I am a presumptuous ass.
I apologize for my intrusion on this matter. And for being judgmental on this issue because the subject matter was something I was not willing to understand or begin to try to. Granted, the fact that I too have that same freedom to voice my concern, I will step up when that concern went off on a fling before all the correct information could be gathered. I should have confronted him from the beginning. Fear stopped me from doing so. Fear that was perpetuated by rumors. Last night I realized, he just a guy with some amazing gifts that surprised me. No need for fear there.
Once again, I apologize.
(a brief apology)
Over a year ago, I made a loud intrusive post about a video that I happened to see at a party on campus. I ran in to the maker of said video last night and I confronted him about it. (Yes I know, its a little late for confrontations here, Shush) He calmly and openly told me information that I did not know, information that made more sense. Even though I still think the video was wrong, But, it is his freedom of speech and is his right to voice whatever emotion screams inside of him. The woman in the video knew everything she needed to know to protect herself. (I have been told that by a number of different sources) The airing of this video did not carry the exact message that I assumed. I am a presumptuous ass.
I apologize for my intrusion on this matter. And for being judgmental on this issue because the subject matter was something I was not willing to understand or begin to try to. Granted, the fact that I too have that same freedom to voice my concern, I will step up when that concern went off on a fling before all the correct information could be gathered. I should have confronted him from the beginning. Fear stopped me from doing so. Fear that was perpetuated by rumors. Last night I realized, he just a guy with some amazing gifts that surprised me. No need for fear there.
Once again, I apologize.
Wednesday, May 26
southern rain
Why is Texas Justice always the only thing on the one channel I get? Did the Judge just say "yaaber" with the meaning of "to speak" ?*sobs*
That's ok, I hate TV anyway. I just like to see that other people do exist in this world outside of my family. It seems like they are the only people I have contact with outside of the walls of my house and/or the message box of Yahoo (except when Jess saves me)
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I am expecting a nasty letter from the Public Library soon. They keep haggling me about a some book about Che - my fiance checked out a long time ago. You have to admire his "I am going to be a hippie/I hate Hippies" change in mentality. Come on honey, You don't have to kill trees!
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So the idea that I would look for spirituality in church has faded. I only made it to church once. These things never last long for me. One week I told the fiance I wanted to go to a Buddhist monastery for a couple months. I was serious. I was planning on going that weekend. Whew...Glad that 'I have to do this or I will die' notion extinguished itself quickly.
Oooommmmmm
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Why do I neglect my soul? I haven't given it candy in so long. My Windows Media player is growing some kind of mold - until tonight.
Sing your heart out Ben. I am still breathing Mr. Beethoven. I love you too Portishead. Crack a bottle of Jack upside my head Maynard...You know you have missed the abuse!
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Why is Texas Justice always the only thing on the one channel I get? Did the Judge just say "yaaber" with the meaning of "to speak" ?*sobs*
That's ok, I hate TV anyway. I just like to see that other people do exist in this world outside of my family. It seems like they are the only people I have contact with outside of the walls of my house and/or the message box of Yahoo (except when Jess saves me)
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I am expecting a nasty letter from the Public Library soon. They keep haggling me about a some book about Che - my fiance checked out a long time ago. You have to admire his "I am going to be a hippie/I hate Hippies" change in mentality. Come on honey, You don't have to kill trees!
*****
So the idea that I would look for spirituality in church has faded. I only made it to church once. These things never last long for me. One week I told the fiance I wanted to go to a Buddhist monastery for a couple months. I was serious. I was planning on going that weekend. Whew...Glad that 'I have to do this or I will die' notion extinguished itself quickly.
Oooommmmmm
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Why do I neglect my soul? I haven't given it candy in so long. My Windows Media player is growing some kind of mold - until tonight.
Sing your heart out Ben. I am still breathing Mr. Beethoven. I love you too Portishead. Crack a bottle of Jack upside my head Maynard...You know you have missed the abuse!
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Tuesday, May 25
You suck and that's sad
Jess stopped by to see me today. I decided to drop T off at my meddling grandmothers for an hour. On my way out of grandma's house I grabbed a coke. Jess nearly wet herself when she saw I was about to drink a whole 29 grams of carbs. She made me feel so guilty I had to pour it out of the window and grab a warm diet cherry coke from the back seat. She relaxed. I guess this carb craziness thing has everyone in a panic. Like two mothers who don't have their kids for an hour, we were bored and had no idea what to do with ourselves. We decided to rehash old times and we went to the park to swing. You know something? Swinging is a damn good time. Who would have thunk it?
She is the by far the greatest best friend bitch to have.
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you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit
brutal.
which happy bunny are you?
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I love the effin happy bunny!
Jess stopped by to see me today. I decided to drop T off at my meddling grandmothers for an hour. On my way out of grandma's house I grabbed a coke. Jess nearly wet herself when she saw I was about to drink a whole 29 grams of carbs. She made me feel so guilty I had to pour it out of the window and grab a warm diet cherry coke from the back seat. She relaxed. I guess this carb craziness thing has everyone in a panic. Like two mothers who don't have their kids for an hour, we were bored and had no idea what to do with ourselves. We decided to rehash old times and we went to the park to swing. You know something? Swinging is a damn good time. Who would have thunk it?
She is the by far the greatest best friend bitch to have.
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you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit
brutal.
which happy bunny are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
I love the effin happy bunny!